Special Day

Poetical flow erupted absolutely through the valley galore

Empty promises announced on wedding day

Denied in way that particles went into a vertebrae

Smiles eloped into many faces on that day before yesterday

Thoughts of happiness seems to mean more than them being free

True beauty in a picture perfect reality

Seems like enchanted feelings all around the room

Nothing in their way to mess up this day

They both held each other with their eyes

Sweet gentle smiles erupted from their mouths to their hearts

That beat heavily from uncertainty.

But they didn’t care

As love of theirs was theirs

And theirs alone

They would make this work

Or so they felt the need to let each other know

He started to open his mouth

And she did as well

And they both said

I Love... You!

And that was the day before yesterday

Today it is a new day

A day of knowing you are one

Damn Ignorant Bastards

What are you looking at you arrogant bastard?

Extreme makeover of the mind

Is viciousness of a sublime?

Peace on earth tears of joy

Sweet gestures of memories

Hidden

Passed on from generation to generations

What are you looking at you arrogant bastard?

The way I put my words together?

They are straight from the heart!

Not the mind!

As the heart connects to the mind

Before there is a strike in the mood…

The heart releases the endorphins to make that happen

What are you looking at you arrogant bastard?

Yea, I am in an Interracial Relationship

What is the deal with that you ask?

I love her dearly

What you care to question my motives?

Oh, you sure you have the right to do so?

What are you looking at you arrogant bastard?

Simplicity in the mind of yours would…

Give you a complex arithmetic to understand the calculations

With the love I have for this sweet young lady

Understand you arrogant bastard…

You should

Question your own motives in what you seek on this planet earth…

Hey, arrogant bastard care to look another way.

Hey, arrogant bastard care to move out of the way.

Hey, arrogant bastard care to simply open up your heart

I guess you cannot

As you are arrogant bastard after all…

Tendencies of Suicide

Suicidal tendencies embedded in my mind like a victim of rape

Dangerous thoughts provoke me to take the cord and slip my skinny neck inside

Twisted memories of my childhood is bare minimum of life behind prison walls

Tears turn into blood

Rope digs into my skin as an emotional umbilical cord

Wrapped over the babies neck

When in the womb

Pain is up high

No shoulder to put my head down upon

Lay my head on the pillow

And cry the tears of grief

Then release the tension

When I am gone in between the sheets

The lies told since I was a child

They will not go away

They simply stay in the back and continue to push me

Forward into a dangerous path

That I know so well

I have not taken this path for quite a long time

But this feeling just comes

And grabs me without my consent

Drags me from bed

And then releases me when it’s done fuckin’ with my head

Life Forms

Life forms in formulating circle of sweet memory kisses

Enchanted by the kindness one gives out, is the kindness you bring in

Without a doubt

Liquid memories of the past

Not forgotten

Nor put on to the side

They still follow me when I ride in my car

I look into my rear view and there I see

Memories of the past following me

 

Have I moved on from what I was?

Truly, that would be a right cause

For my own, self is something of mastery

Of life

Connecting all the dots

Is what I hope to gain

But miss the missing puzzle to the game

Who is to blame but me?

The Second Book of the Tao by Stephen Mitchell (Part 4)

 

Quote:

The ancient Masters saw deeply.

How deep was their insight?

They realized that nothing exists.

This is perfect understanding.

 

Those at the next stage

thought that things existed

but saw no boundaries between them.

 

Next came those who saw boundaries

but didn’t judge things as good or bad.

 

When judgments arose,

understanding was damaged;

when understanding was damaged,

preferences became ingrained.

 

But is there really such a thing

as damage or wholeness?

The Master understands

that there is nothing to understand.

 Commentary:

Most of think we know a lot. What if we do not know anything? What if in reality, we are immune to knowing? Is this reality real? Do we live in a reality that we create? Does it really matter? Why not just live? I suppose many would say, “How can we continue evolving, if we do not question our reality and our surroundings?” Well, how about by being and by living?

Do boundaries exist in our minds from birth? Or do we create the boundaries ourselves? Why not let things be as they are. I think the one way to evolve, is simply by living and being us. We have been questioning things to the point of exhaustion. Let us stop this kind of thinking and find another solution.

Let’s just be. Be with whoever brings you joy. Why do you need anything more than that? Personally, when I got rid of the complicated thoughts that is when I connected with myself.




Lost Room

Cornered in a room where light is not visible
Holding the head because of the mistakes this person had made
Words of nonexistent butterflies
Flow with life of living time to the fullest degree
Future does look bright
To the magnificent body
Of falling down lies
Told to one another.




Rolling Affairs

Tears stripped to encompass the futuristic heavens

Feelings engulfed onto walls in a bathroom stall

Permanent marker moved in circular rotation

Spreading feelings of anguish

And pain

Belief system changed

When no one walked into the bathroom stall

The day before yesterday

Was all about romance

But today

In that bathroom stall

When one was supposed to meet the other

The affair did not happen when it was supposed too

In that bathroom stall

Like it usually had

The tears rolled in a ball of fire

Onto the concrete ground they fell

Pounding the pavement

In rhythm blues




The Second Book Of The Tao by Stephen Mitchell (Part 3)

 

Quote:

The great Tao cannot be named,

great discernment cannot be seen,

great benevolence is not gentle,

great modesty is not meek,

great courage is not aggressive.

 

When you truly understand

the Tao that cannot be named,

you become rooted in not-knowing.

This is called “inner radiance.”

Add to it, it is never full;

take from it, it is never depleted.

Who can tell where it comes from?

It is the inexhaustible treasury.

 

Commentary:

Not knowing is part of life. Sometimes, when you do not know it is okay to admit that you do not know. Why hide behind words that you do not mean. When it is your time to share, someone or something will come and ask for it. There is no need to push religion/thoughts and other philosophical ideas onto people. Let things be how they are. When it is your time, it will be your time. You are not missing anything, by holding your tongue. You are gaining all the knowledge needed, for when it that time does come.




The Second Book of the Tao by Stephen Mitchell (Part 2)

 

Quote:

Before sorrow, anger,

Longing, or fear have arisen,

you are in the center.

When these emotions appear

and you know how to see through them,

you are in harmony.

That center is the root of the universe;

that harmony is the Tao,

which reaches out to all things.

 

Once you find the center

and achieve harmony,

heaven and earth take their proper places

and all things are fully nourished.

 

Commentary:

A person can only begin to save their self-first. Healing the world is extraordinary, but how can you heal the world, if you the one that needs healing? Find the center and begin to cultivate harmony. Connect yourself to the center of the universe. It will continuously guide you. The universe will return favors, if you move with it and let it be your leader.




The Second Book of the Tao by Stephen Mitchell (Part 1)

 

I have been reading an outstanding book called. “The Second Book of the Tao” by Stephen Mitchell. If anyone is familiar with Tao Te Ching, then you will love this book. In the coming posts, I will start posting quotes from the book. I will include my own commentary, as this will help me understand the book better.

Let us begin with the first quote:

What is bestowed on us at birth

is called human nature.

The fulfillment of human nature

is called the Tao.

The cultivation of the Tao

is the deepest form of learning.

 

The Tao is the way things are,

which you can’t depart from

even for one instant.

If you could depart from it,

it wouldn’t be the Tao.

Therefore the Master

looks into her own heart

and respects what is unseen and unheard.

 

Nothing is more manifest than the hidden;

nothing is more obvious than the unseen.

Therefore the Master

pays attention to what is happening

within her innermost self.

Commentary:

When someone tells you, "You are born with it," you accept it. When scientists do experiments in the lab, hoping to find the cure for Cancer we praise them. However, when human civilization stops moving with human nature, we throw our hands up high because we believe we have not found the cure. Nevertheless, in reality, there is no cure, as we have ignored to move with human nature.

Look into your own heart first, before you judge nature. As all human beings are, nature and all things living is nature as well. Move with it and let nature and others guide you in understanding yourself.

Knowing that you can change your path in anyway, should be one of the reasons to keep waking up in the morning.




Annoyed Homeless Child

Child drags a wagon full of empty cans. His face begins to turn red; embarrassment recommences to take over his psyche. People continue watching him. Child does not get any sympathy for hard work. Child walks towards a lonely path to another garbage bin. He looks in, but nothing there. He switches his hands and takes the wagon with his other un-used hand; his hands are getting tired from dragging the wagon up to the hill.

He is abandoned and panic stricken, but determined to succeed in amount of cans would need to gather, in order to feed his uncle who struggles to count loose change on the grass.

One man looks towards him. Would he rescue this child from a destruction of anonymous proportions? The man continued staring into gray space of where the child continued separating empty water bottles from empty soda cans.

“Hey, are you okay?” Man asked the child

“Um, ye…yes, sir, I am oka..Okay”

“Where are your parents?” Man asks.

“My uncle is over there!” Pointing index finger towards South.

Child’s hands are small from all the digging he did in the garbage bins. Hands dirty from picking through half empty bottles and empty soda cans.

The man’s eyes follow child’s index finger. Man’s eyes lock into a trance like mode. Man continues staring at child’s uncle who seems to be smiling, while he counts his loose change on the grass.

“Okay, that’s good! Man moves his right hand into his back pocket hoping he will locate his wallet he thought he forgot at home.

“Here you go!” Man hands a 100$ to the child.

Child looks at the man in astonishment.

“Well? Take it!” Man moves his hand further from his body towards the child.

“No, thank you!” Child says while continuing to separate empty water bottles from empty soda cans.

“Why? Just take it!" Man says, while his facial expressions outline agitation.

“No! I do not need your one-hundred dollars! Please, leave me alone!”

“What?” Man confused and shocked that his 100$ was turned down by a homeless kid and an uncle whose counting change on the grass.

“I do not need your money!” Child re-assures the man. “Please, leave me alone! I have a lot of work to do.”

The child grabs his old beat up wagon in his right hand and starts pulling it up towards another hill. The man follows, surprised and annoyed. The man asks again.

“Why won’t you take my money? You are homeless and cannot take care of yourself. The 100$ will help you with food and other necessities.” Man says while panting from the uphill climb.

“You didn’t hear me? I do not need your money because you feel generosity today. You think here is a child, homeless he must needs my help. However, are you really helping me or are you helping yourself? You feel shame towards yourself because you have seen other homeless people too, but have you offered money to them? Probably not! Look sir, I do not need your money. We are doing fine! Please, just leave us alone!”

“But…”

“No thank you!”

Man watches as the child struggles to make it up another hill. Man looks for a second at his one-hundred dollar bill, squeezes it and puts it back into his back pocket.




Daddies and Daughters Story

Marvin laid next to his daughter Fainty. Words of happiness surrounded each syllable he spoke to her.

Marvin’s heart became weak, as his daughter slowly closed her eyes and took daddies hand and wrapped herself with it. She was all but, five.

Marvin asked Fainty.

"Hunnie, do you want me to talk to the angels for you? Tell them you would like to be guided in your dreams?"

No response resonated from Fainty.

Fainty breathed heavily. Her eyes blinked a few times. Marvin thought, “Maybe she started dreaming already?” Marvin needed to go to sleep because he would have to wake up early in the morning for work, but he could not let go of his daughter’s hands as they continued to wrap around Fainty.

Marvin looked at Fainty, wondering if she was asleep. How could it be? Fainty never fell asleep so quickly before. “Maybe it was the ice cream and the singing that Daddy and Fainty did in the evening.” Marvin thought to himself.

“Well, I suppose I can miss work.” Marvin thought to himself.

“Daddy” Fainty said in a low, but monotone voice.

“Will you please, tell me a story?” Said Fainty while holding a teddy bear her father got her for her fourth birthday.

“Okay! Marvin said.

“There was a girl who was five. She lived with her daddy and her daddy loved her a lot. He would read her stories from books that his little girl recommended. She would fall asleep and have great dreams. Daddy would make sure that his little girl had great dreams and that Angels watched over his sweet little daughter.”

“Time went on and daddy continued loving his daughter, oh, so much. However, rolls have changed. Daddy was dying from cancer. Nevertheless, what used to be his little girl, was now a grown woman. While daddy was on his deathbed, daddy asked if his now grown daughter would tell him a story.”

Daddies grown daughter looked at Daddy and started to cry. Daddy looked at his grown daughter and said: “My sweet little daughter, please do not cry!” I love you oh, so very much. Please, tell me a story, so now, I may go to sleep.




Finding his Calling

He sat there. His hands on top of his laptop. He hoped to type, a few words that he assumed would help him survive his infinity and one depression. It was late. Around 3A.M.

His mind raced into many directions. Not one thought of how he was going to make it out alive, however

"Am I going to kill myself?" questions arose in his mind, faster than pimples.

Fear of endlessness was coming; or so he thought.

"What will I do with myself? I cannot live anymore. I need to type a few words, before I blast my brains out into the floor."

He could not take any more arguments with his girlfriend. It seemed every time, he became free and endless from the surreal reality, and arguments would arise with his girlfriend. These arguments would set him back into frenzy.

The arguments would eat at his active imagination. He was stuck, helpless and alone in the darkest corner of his own universe.

A phone rang without a stop. His girlfriend was calling.

He continued to hang up, as his heart raced.

What was he going to do? Will he continue his "writing gig?" or continue slaving away at his labor job? It would eat his mind and soul, if he continued.

Does he give in and continue pushing forward? Many people would conclude that we all struggle in this life. However, some struggle more than others do.

He would put his fingers once again at the keyboard, and start to type.

"Majority of people calling upon a guru or a special person to save them from being eaten alive by life, is slowly mistaken the existence of his presence. People struggling to find the corner stone of being alive, should continue to search elsewhere."

As these words showed up on his screen, his mind continued to race. He was being a hypocrite to his own words. The words he outlined up above, are same exact words, he needed to follow. His path was lit up once again…

Now he needed to find what his calling was. He needed to search deep into the empty promises of religion, philosophy and the world. The real calling would be inside him all along.




Lost in Life’s Fairytales

Lost in my own ramblings of thoughts
Fearless hype of the world I think I know
Endless possibilities I will get out alive
To be truthful, I'm as scared as a burnt victim after the 9/11 storm
Nothing seems to make sense to me anymore
All that I do
Seems to backfire into many particles of endless answers
Struggling to make sense of it all
Is not what I am here for?
Ending the road to the source, I came from
Is numero uno in my book
Where do I go from here?
I kept on searching, but cannot find what I seek
When will the answer appear in my sleep?
All the dreams I recently had
Was all but darkening spots
No light has beamed into my little world
Empty promises I made to myself
Have all but escaped from my endless soul
Over and over again
How far will I continue to push the boundaries?
If I'm not willing to follow them through?
Is this all a fairytale?
Is this all make believe?
Do I really believe nothing of greatness will come my way?
Will anyone even read these words?
Probably not
I hope that a child lost and unwanted can find these words
And hopefully, he can learn from the mistakes I have made
So hopefully, he will not do what I have done
He picks up the gun, and aims at his temples
Fires a few shots…
BAaM!!!
Falls to the ground floor in his apartment
Helpless
And endless




Evolved

Ever evolving mastery of deceit

Described in boldness of sleep

Sweet memories of deep

Penetration into the profound explorations

Of moments shared between a single smile

 

Walk by an individual and lay out the formation of a grin

See what you will get in return

A smile with teeth showing

Or

A simple Hello...




Thoughts and Ramblings

Life - Is a complex organism that continuously evolves into an array of particles. The automatic system of it all is so complex that I have problems sleeping at night. I continuously question it and hope one day; I will be able to understand it all.

Thoughts - Are complex. It is amazing to consider how much thoughts could potentially change directions you take in life. No matter a thought, if you act on it, it could change your life for the better or for the worse.

Death - Is uncomplicated. When we die, we begin life of life. Energy flows in and out. There is no need for body in order to feel the flow of energy.

Love - Endless and consciously existing. Never taking form nor replaceable to be nonexistent. Love always existed and will always exist. Once we pass, love will remain to be fluid.

Tears - Cleansing of bodies. Repeats the cycle like the movement of two bodies intertwined to produce one single heart beat.




Dreaming Life

Dreams come through in particles of calmness

Into the windowsill

The full out laughter’s beam into many people’s faces

Grins all around the mouths of all connecting forces

With this universe

Combinations of status combine to bring darkness into hours

And into life

However, with each passing moment

Dreams become reality

In each individual living or dead




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