Thoughts Part 1

Do not listen to me. As my thoughts are my own. And my experiences are mine as well. Gain and find your own thoughts, experiences, and you will find whatever that is you seek!

The Flow

Move with the flow...
Or move with the water...
Why fight situations...
When you can go around it...
Just like water...

I just did Standing Meditation and this is the Results

 

Day 5. 12.10.2009

I just did Standing Meditation and this is the results:

First attempt at Standing Meditation:

The first 4 1/2 min I had both of my right/left arms burning, felt like fire/energy flowing throughout my body.

My right/left leg was also burning; especially my feet.

Second Attempt at Standing Meditation:

I did it for 5 min this time and this is what happened:

My right/left arm burned even more, but this time they started to get sweaty.

My right/left leg was burning too, but this time it moved into my thighs as well.

I continued breathing and focusing on my breath.

I was relaxed.

My body felt relaxed and light.

I closed my eyes the second time and I looked and felt like I saw energy flowing through my fingers.

Maybe not, but it sure felt like it was.

Like seeing the hidden energy many books/people/masters and others speak about.

Notes:

As I am typing this, my hands are still sweaty.

I did use music for the first time, but second time I did not. (Music I used first time: Chakra 7 - The purple crown: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=53ATkR0WBjU&feature=related)

This is my fourth time this week doing Standing Meditation

Thoughts and Ramblings

Life - Is a complex organism that continuously evolves into an array of particles. The automatic system of it all is so complex that I have problems sleeping at night. I continuously question it and hope one day; I will be able to understand it all.

Thoughts - Are complex. It is amazing to consider how much thoughts could potentially change directions you take in life. No matter a thought, if you act on it, it could change your life for the better or for the worse.

Death - Is uncomplicated. When we die, we begin life of life. Energy flows in and out. There is no need for body in order to feel the flow of energy.

Love - Endless and consciously existing. Never taking form nor replaceable to be nonexistent. Love always existed and will always exist. Once we pass, love will remain to be fluid.

Tears - Cleansing of bodies. Repeats the cycle like the movement of two bodies intertwined to produce one single heart beat.

Moments of Clarity

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Jai refused to admire the congruent symmetry of his chin. Jai walked throughout his life as a soulless memory of his past mind. He struggled to achieve what his friends have achieved. Success is the game of life. Jai was infused throughout his life on the importance of fitting in and achieving an admiring status. He could not figure out what success could do to him, as his focus was to inspire others with his words. Jai battled within his mind, trying to give in into the easy ways of success, as his father’s connections meant everything to Jai.

One day when Jai came home from hanging out with his girlfriend, his father was in the living -room-watching television. Usually, Jai would walk into the house and his father would not respond, as his father’s mind was under hypnosis from the television. However, this time, he could not escape his father’s attacks on his psyche.

“Hey Jai!”

“Son, can you come here for a second.” His father said, while staring at the strident television screen.

Of course Jai, was always annoyed when his father wanted to speak to him, as the conversations they had, always evolved around school and work.

“What do you want?” Jai responded while walking past the living room.

“Excuse me?” said the father in a voice that Jai knew quite too well.

“Well, what is that you wanted?”

The relationship that Jai and his father had was not a relationship at all. It lacked meaning and character.

“I just wanted to speak to you, for a second. Is that too much to ask?” said the father, looking agitated because Jai would not come over to him when he asked him too.”

“No, of course not! I’m just not sure what you want to speak to me about.”

“We never usually speak, so why would you want to speak to me now?”

Jai was a bit exhausted from school, so he did not have too much time to waste trying to speak to his dad. It was a sad and depressing seeing father and son not getting along, especially when Jai was younger, the connection that the father and Jai had, was inseparable. They did everything together. What happened in the past five years? What has changed?

“Look Son! I know we have not connected in a long time, but that does not mean that we should stop trying. I want to re-evaluate our love for one another.”

Before Jai’s father was able to say anything, Jai could not stand in the living room any longer; he had to speak his mind.

“Look Dad! I still care about you and still want to try to make things work.” But Dad! You are always under some kind of control. It feels like some kind of dark entity starts taking over you when you watch television.”

“Especially when you are watching television, darkness seems to get even stronger.”

“Oh Jai! Why are you lying?”

“I’m perfectly fine!”

“No, Dad! You are not. You are quite distant and you have been for a very long time.”

“Son, why are you lying? I have been the same and I have not changed. Television does not do anything to me I am perfectly fine. Stop talking non-sense!”

“No, fuck it dad!” I do not want to continue having this conversation if you are not going to listen to me.”

Jai, looked into his father’s eyes for one second, and started walking towards his room; when his father starts yelling once again.

“Jai get your goddamn ass over here, at this moment!”

“Dad, no, I cannot talk to you!”

“Then get the fuck out this house!”

“Wh, Wha, What? Dad, are you serious? Why are you throwing me out? What did I do?

“Get out now, Jai!” I do not want you in this house! I said get out, you hear me?”

Jai looked at his father for a few final moments, he knew that his father’s eyes had darkness in them, he knew there was no point of trying to explain himself, so Jai grabbed his belongings and walked out.

As Jai walked away from his house, he whispers “Goodbye my father. I’m sorry that we lost touch with one another.” Hoping that his father would receive those words by faith, Jai continued to walk into the distance.

As Jai continued walking away into the distance, his father stood up from his favorite chair; opened one of the blinds, in order to peak into his son’s view. Jai and his father lost moments of clarity.

Life's Observations Part 1

As I watch life running away from me, I can only grasp the end of what is a new beginning. I observe life in little bursts, because if one watches life too closely, they lose sight of what is in front of them. What is in front of me is something that I pushed aside many times before. True beauty in life is to know how to overcome the anger you have for yourself.

My anger comes from not loving myself as much as I should. Disliking myself when I do not follow what my heart is telling me. It is a dangerous way to live and certainly has its consequences. How does one obtain pure love for themselves when you deny yourself of pure happiness? The joy comes from believing in yourself and your willingness to succeed. The hatred is a vicious cycle, mostly embedded to destroy your sense of purpose. The purpose in this life is to prosper in a way that will make you feel complete. The beautiful part of our purpose is that we cannot feel complete, because symbols are feelings.

Symbols are rules human beings follow in our society. This is how our society works. If one ignores the rules set out by the symbols you created, the punishments are awarded. If you put positive symbols into your mind, you will prosper greatly. On the other hand, if you continue putting negative symbols into your mind, the more negative your life becomes.

Symbols are thoughts or words. No matter how you to define it, it is nothing more then a way to control your freedom. One must attain desire to drop symbols from ones life in order to find happiness.